Awhile

Well it's been awhile since I have posted on here, so I figured I would tonight. To start off I can't sleep mainly because I have so many things running through my head. I finished my first year of college and well It made me miss high school. I miss just knowing everyone and just having that connection with teachers that you have had for four years. Change gets harder as you get older and while I see people say they just want to be done with high school or wish they could just be older I must say don't wish these things to happen so quickly you will miss it. Getting older means more responsibility. Another thing that has been floating around in my mind is how things are just that much more difficult for people with chronic illnesses. You find school to get harder while trying to balance doing medicines 2 or 3 times a day and also managing work everyday and also trying to find a bit of social time with that and for some people a relationship, that's a lot of stuff for anyone. but ill just have to adapt to these changes and start doing what I need to do. I keep wanting to move out but I then realize how hard that's going to be right now with only a part time job, but that independence that you gain makes you feel better, specially when you have so little due to having a disease that restricts you so much. Having any disease is like a having a chain ball on you're an ankle. On a brighter note I'm also starting to realize how great my friends and family are. I truly have such a big appreciation for them and all they have done for me. This getting old deal is tiring but it also makes you look at things in a whole new outlook. Change is inevitable, just need to flow with it. And maturity helps you really find out who you are. Remember everyone we all have a little kid in us still don't forget to let it out once in awhile and really enjoy moments in you're life. And no matter where life takes you as you grow keep you're dreams alive.