Who are you?

As I get older and look back on some of the things I've done, I always realize one thing and that is how I was never truly me. I always found myself trying to be in the "in" crowd and follow whatever they did even if it affected my health, or my life in general it was just all about being that guy people thought was cool and would want to hangout with. I would go from girl to girl say the same things to them, try talking to 2 girls at once thinking the other wont know but eventually found out. I was stupid I was a regular teenage kid. This even went on until I was a little past 20. Then it hit me and I thought is this really who I am? I thought about it and It wasn't who I truly was. I was always so caught up in looking for attention and being that guy everyone likes when I was just making myself look like an idiot. I want to just talk about how I feel people get caught up in what I was caught up in a lot of times specially the teenagers and I understand it's about social dominance but where will that get anyone in the long run? Everybody is different from appearance, to looks, to personalities. Why try and be the be the same as someone else ? We should all be our own person do what makes us happy, to dig deep down inside of yourself and find what makes you happy and makes you unique. And for us to except each other for who they are and what they want, to try and stop putting others in situations in things they wouldn't usually do. I find that I believe more people would be happy if they didn't consume themselves with being the person others would want to hangout with for the wrong reasons but to be themselves and want people to hangout and be their friend for the right reasons. And for girls now a days who feel like they need to lower their self-esteem and degrade themselves to get a boy to like you is none sense or to even be liked. If a guy doesn't like you for who you are and the personality that you have no way are they worth a minuet of your time because some where out there, there's a guy willing to accept you for exactly who you are and want to be and to help you reach your goals in life and be there through the bad and good and not want you when it's convenient for them. I used to be a guy myself who didn't truly respect girls for who they are and I got a wake up call. So to all you guys respect girls, and if you have a girlfriend make sure they are your first priority and treat them right because if not they won't stick around. We all need to treat each other right as well as being our own person and not something someone wants us to be. Be unique, be you.

A crazy way

I question why me? Why do I have to suffer from a disease and so many others why some people have it so good as in being musically talented or being great at a sport and so on. I suffer and they are healthy and live a life I wish of having. But I thought about it, I may not be famous but I do have an impact on peoples lives. I can make a difference maybe not to the world but to some people. When I think about this it makes my life that much more important it makes me want to live forever. I don't have millions of dollars I don't have an amazing voice nor I'm I really good at a sport but I am good at making people laugh and smile. This life isn't all about money or being famous. If you can change someones life that is worth everything specially too me. I love everyone In my life for giving me everything I can ask for which is love all that I ever will need and be rich in.